Is it possible that I loathe and despise liberals, because deep down in my filthy mind I am by them?

I mean I always seem to marry or shack up with liberal chicks who fashion themselves as hippies that smoke tobacco/pot, do other drugs, drink, cuss, want to have relations with me when other folks in the house can hear us, shirk responsibility, etc. Why do I always end up with chicks like this even though I am more a just right of center moderate/quasi-traditionalist who was formerly hard right Christian extremist? And are they starting to rub off on me?